how will i make it happen?
thought i'd try out the windows explorer 7 beta 2 today. i downloaded it and installed then updated it. it didn't go. good advertising for microsoft.met up with a good friend from auckland today. just for a coffee. a mc coffee to be exact. it was great to see him.
will have another coffee tomorrow with another friend who is a very good bass player. looking forward to that. lots of coffee to be drunk whilst reconnecting with friends.
went shopping for jeans and a leather jacket today. enjoyed that.
music..... how will i get myself the means to record my song ideas before i forget them? the sickness benefit doesn't allow one to work one's way out of the income level you are in. i think it is designed to keep you down. in fact i know it.
there must be a way. i can't seem to do anything else [except coach]. mmm. more thinking to be done. out of deprivation and desperation are ideas manifested. a bit flash for my situation but you get the drift.
miracles..... i wonder when my miracle will materialise? artistic people all over the world wait for their miracle. that time when they are appreciated for the God given skills they were born to realise in this life. why have the gift in the first place? what use is it to me or to anyone else that i can play and write music? will he ever open the doors that have closed in my head let alone the physical doors that have not been opened to me for many years now? i am only ever whole when the music goes well. it is such a wonderful place to be. i wanna go back to that place.
posted by mystified @ 5:05 pm
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